happiness is what you strive to achieve

*happy but exhausted*..

couzzy just came to Brisbane for a work trip and main aim is just to see me. . apart from being touched, she has basically pampered me heaps by : cooking for me, cleaning my kitchen for me, and going shopping with me, went to eagles' pier, etc... didnt' bring my camera, so no pictures, but then its really good to get another perspective on what I'm doing now.. basically that i should shift to the city..this is effectively what i'm paying now:

Rent - $340/wk (assuming after my housemate leaves and no support)
Transport - $16/wk (and it will be $32/wk assuming no concession)
Carpark - $50/wk (assuming the occasional driving into city and parking for personal)Time spent - $270/wk (assuming 1.5 hours extra spent/day/trip @ employment 18/hr )

Total - $676/wk (even if i take off my housemate's payment of rent, it will still be more than whatever amount that i would spend in the city paying for a one bedroom apartment, catching up on my sleep, as well as prob heading to the gym...

*laughs*..that's not even including the utilities bill and the car petrol costs... haha..

And anyway... rego and insurance is due. -> total $1.3k.. not complaining cause I think i may have benefitted much from the use of the car, apart from the occasional speeding and red-light camera fine.. *faintz*...

Realising that my blog hasn't got much pictures..so... there we go.... I miss you..very very much...



thank god you're coming over to Brisbane -> 29 APR 2008!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Having different thoughts on my mind.

Maybe I'm being paranoid / over sensitive...

But there seems to be a favouritism between me and colleague X... and maybe a little on colleague Y.. even though I think maybe cause the person has done more work and therefore have more chances of interaction... perhaps its just racism and favouritism..maybe even I am guilty of such charges, when i prefer one person's work over the other, back @ home. Over here, can't judge much cause don't give much coaching though... sigh..

Fortunately not many people know of this blog.. till date, i think none of my colleagues actually know this space exists, and i think that isn't such a bad thing where i could rant my thoughts, yet again..being alone here...

Anyway, i think these few days, not that I intentionally think about it and I'm not too sure if i should rant it out here... it might cause pressure.. (i dont' know..but if you are reading it..its just prob best to ignore this post..or maybe i should just mark it as private. let me find the damn option.. *laughs*

It comes to a stage now that i think i may be ready for the next stage in life..whether its settling down / fidning a good home..cause afterall, girls' attractiveness is akin to fruits...pretty and fresh when young, .... tend to get neglected when aged....

oh well.. perhaps should rant till there..cause else if something happened due to the post on this blog, i bear no responsibility.. *lol* perhaps just because i'm lonely.... haha..now u realise that lonely pple can get up to lots if they want, just because they are lonely... *laughs*

"Whatever can go wrong, will go wrong!"

If there is a classification for these couple of days, the above will tell all that happen these couple of days.... its really ridiculous...maybe cause i'm too tired as well..... oh well...


started @ yesterday 10am ->
Locked myself out of my own bedroom!!!!!! can you imagine?? not my house, but my own bed room... didn't even realised there was a lock until i had to ask the locksmith to unlock before i know how to lock the bedroom.... lesson learnt with a price of $88.

then today....

kind of pissed with what happened today actually with work..but i guess its just different standards...won the horse's ass awards AGAIN.... how embarrasing!!!!!!

came home @ 6.30pm..... trying to catch a file which was going to drop...one of the blinds detached itself...so i had to put it up.... its a one in a millionth time that it could happen....

thinking that its all over, split the hot water which i was drinking, on the table.....

i wonder if i should go to sleep and hope that everything will be bright and fresh tmr...sigh... its been a long day...

maybe i'm just missing attention and love... i should really think about settling down soon... hopefully someone will just tie me down..haha...

a Hectic week yet again!

i CAN'T imagine how time flies by so fast without me even batting an eyelid!

Anyway, I've really got to finish all my tutorials by the end of this weekend, else I'll be really left behind and will have to rush next week, terribly, although I've already presented though, so it should all be good.

Have been missing someone of late. Didn't think i would miss him THAT often.... prob missing his comforting silences and words of consolation. more likely, missing his constant presence in my life.

Does that mean, am i falling for him ? ?? or am i just lonely? ? ?

*laughs*..been quite busy of late, just some random thought that came to my mind though. alrighty..back to books!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy

Just realised that CH and WK are perhaps finalizing to tie the knot at the end of this year..so its really good..one more couple down...a pity that i've started my career so late though, else it'll be good for females my age to start something now.

you know..its prob the time where you start to think if you are really goign on the right track..and what you can do to make your life a little better..perhaps living with someone closer, would be heaps better i think.... at least at the end of the day, u know that someone would never forsake you....

my true thoughts..have i matured yet? am i willing to commit myself?? haha.... maybe....maybe...maybe...

*happy and rested*

Just going to end my big Holiday from Fri - Mon.... NICE NICE!!!!!!!

but anyway, it wasn't all fun and games...as i was rushing off to finish one assignment *laughs*.. finally done..so its all good now...

hopefully i'll keep blogging till at least end of this yr to keep inform of my happenings. haha..

currently not much ....*laughs*..thus i end my post.

An old and dusty site

Yes... it has finally come the time to re-live this blog again.

Its been 6 months since I've every written in here..and god knows when the last visiter was, prob DT to drum the bday tune.*laughs*

Oh well, so much have happen here, yet I feel a little bit perplexed on what I've been feeling for 6 months.

BIG question i ask myself:


IF I WERE TO DIE RIGHT NOW, AM I HAPPY WITH MY LIFE

The answer is Yes as per this moment cause given a choice, I don't think i can live any other way and be as fulfilled right now.

I gave myself a little list of resolutions at the beginning of the year. Surprise surprise! It actually didn't include losing weight, cause that's a hopeless resolution which I will never get to fulfil. Anyway, here are some:

- Get better in the job.
- Get myself acknowledged in my career.
- Pass my studies ...just PASS..not worried for meriting..just not NOT passing!
- Find my Mr Right (not young anymore - "whatever")
- Find myself (I find it REALLY HARD to say maybe I can never finish finding this one... its a never ending vicious cycle- think losing weight). haha....

There.. I sat down after a while..and think..its still too early to say... being only Mar, prob will write in May or something though..if it will work out.

*laughs*... think this will really be just my journal..cause i think..no one actually expects me to blog anymore...... *laughs*..oh well...

and anyway, if you are reading this, HAPPY EASTER... prob i'm just wishing myself too!!!!!haha...